I HAVE EVERYTHING BUT AT THE SAME TIME, NOTHING

Wealth, fame, glory.... Life is a long journey. Everyone lifes a different life.......

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I have everything that I ever needed, I nice place to stay, a well-known name and a good career. To think back carefully, they are all actually the same thing. A good career leads to getting good pay, means living in a wealthy state. Being wealthy makes a person well-known.

I work as a supervisor in a ceramic company. The boss has high hopes on me and so, I worked hard. I was rather strict so many did not really had a good favor on me. But at the end of the day, they were all happy to have a job well done.

Being looked up by the superior puts a person in a rather comfortable state. Everyone working in the company will try to be close to you. These people are the so called 'friends'. But little do we know what they are thinking of. Some of them might just be waiting for the right time to pull you down. So, its better to be safe than sorry and to be careful of everything that I do.

This is the meaning of having everything but at the same time, having nothing. Yes, I do live in a good life where I am free from monetary burdens. But, deep down inside me, I have to be always careful of my friends. 'Trust' it a difficult word to learn.

Being in this state puts me in a sort of lonely state whereby I do not have any friends or anyone who I can share my thoughts with. Well, not learning the word 'trust', I can't complain at all as it is all my fault from the start. But again, I'd rather be safe than sorry.

Until the time comes, maybe one day, I will find someone who I can trust and rely on. Ego kicks in my head as I seldom let anyone perform a task unattended by me. I'd better change for the better.

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Reality can sometimes be sad. But, its still real. When we pass on from our university lifes, I do wonder sometimes, will we be living in a world with no one to trust at all.

LONELY NO MORE

Being together with someone is a paradise especially when we are happy being with that person. Another point of view is the bind that puts people in a situation they can't pull themselves out from.

First person point of view.

I cant even remember when I started my relationship with him as it happened a long time ago. All I remember are the good times I spend with him. He is indeed a great person to me although he neglects me sometimes, I still want to be with him. Why? Even I myself can't explain it. All I know is that he is an important person to me.

I as a young teenager is still in my university life and still working hard in pursueing my degree. But I never can tell what the outcome maybe as I find myself rather weak in studies. I work hard just to achieve higher. Just to make sure I have a better future.

My family? Hmm... all I can say is that I don't really live in a family where my parents gets married and lives happily ever after. There are just a lot of conflicts in my family, especially with my parents. They were always in a rough situation. I started avoiding them as I fear the conflict they have and in the end, I felt lonely. I had no one to turn to. I had to stay with them as ther was no other place I can seek shelter... Until I met him.

He cared for me and would do anything for me. After I graduated from high school, he funded me to work in a neighbouring city. This is very meaningful to me. I gained new experiences and at the same time I felt that I am in debt with him. I felt weak and rather useless. So, I was determined to do something, to achieve something in my life and gain acknowledgement from the people around me. I want to show that whatever he did for me was not useless and that it beared fruit.

I call him my good friend while others calls him my 'boyfriend'. No matter what the title, he is still him. I hope that I can one day do something to repay the kindness and care he gave to me.

I don't feel lonely anymore. Thanks to him....

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A rather amusing post I find. Human relations are very unique and sometimes unpredictable. One thing that I must say is that I never can predict anyones thoughts as they all feel a different kind of feeling from me. But still, I'm trying hard to understand people. ^.^